Do you ever find yourself in a funk? I am feeling that way now. It has been a while since I have had any alone time with my Father and I am feeling it! Then my human self says it's fine I have to get these things done in the house then you can have me. I know that is why I feel the way I do and I still allow it to happen. I Must stop! I have fallen and I find myself clawing to get back up out of my pit.


I was watching a show last night that is very worldly but for some reason I cannot stay away from it. The host was trying to attack these women that said they were Christians. One socially drank and the other was divorced and dating. He would basically say why do you say you are a Christian when you are doing these things. I was so glad to hear the women stand up for themselves. Not that I agree with what they were doing but I don't think anyone should have to be attacked.



You do not have to be perfect to be a Christian. We all fall short and we all have to picked up out of the dust . Thankfully He has picked me up numerous times, dusted me off, carried me until I was ready to walk in His path on my own, then I thought I could do it all on my own again and fell into the dust once again.

Thank you Lord for always picking me up!

Oh No!!!!
Blaine is crawling!!
He made from the living room floor through the kitchen to the laundry room where I was.
My life will never be the same!!

I've been tagged!
Four jobs I've had:
1. working at my parent's radio station
2. Pharmacy Tech.
3. vacuum sales/secretary
4. childcare provider

Four places I lived:
1.Monticello,AR
2.Monticello, AR
3. Monticello,AR
4.Monticello,AR

Four movies I've watched over and over
1. Cars
2. Bourne Identity
3. Fast and Furious
4. Steel Magnolias

Four shows I watch
1. What Not to Wear (does that mean I'm shallow?! ha!)
2. House Hunters
3.John and Kate Plus 8
4. ER

Four places I've been:
1. Washington DC
2. Oregon
3. Florida
4. Iowa

Four people who e-mail me regularly:
1. Steve
2. Joanna
3. Andra
4. Truman

Four favorite things to eat:
1. anything chocolate
2. crab legs
3. fruit
4. veggies

Four places I'd rather be:
1. Soaking in the tub
2. visiting my sisters
3. shopping
4. alone at home

Four things I look forward to this new year:
1. My boys' birthdays
2. Vacation
3. hearing from God
4. Warmer weather

Okay,whoever reads my blog....tag, your it!

It is definitely cold today!! Like always the thought of any winter weather sends this town in a frenzy! It did not help that someone had a wreck and a light pole fell on their car. It knocked the power out to almost the entire town. We were off for 2 1/2 hours and Fred's was off for 4 1/2 hours. Barry will be late coming home tonight. People wait until the last minute to get their gas turned on and he has a leak to fix. Winter is a busy time for the gas man! I hope you stay warm tonight. I know I will have my hot chocolate and will be sitting by the fireplace after I deliver food to a family in our church that just had a baby.

What in the world came over my child?! He never throws a fit. Especially about nap time. He knows there is no way around it. He may be mouthy and have attitude but where did this fit come from? The look in his eyes made him look possessed or something. Oh my what an afternoon!! All I knew to do when he was done was to sit and pray over him. I was not sure how else to even handle my nerves. And now the youngest is awake and I have a headache from paint fumes. I know I must seem to be in a mood today but I am just stunned at his actions. Other than that I usually have a headache from something everyday so no biggy. On to snuggle!

I went in Blaine's room a little bit ago because he just would not go to sleep. I walked in to check on him and he is sitting up in his bed! My sweet baby is growing too fast! He will be crawling any day now. He has been going from his tummy to sitting up while playing on the floor but this is a first in his bed.

BIBLE MEDITATION:“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

DEVOTIONAL THOUGHT:When we ought to be enjoying victorious, abundant lives…what happens? Fear creeps in and grips us cold. Many of us lose priceless opportunities because of this boa constrictor of fear. When fear dominates, there is no room for Christ Who can comfort us (John 16:33). Worry is the noxious first cousin to fear. They will do to you what grit does to machinery — shut you down. But God gives us the victory with His power, His love, and the gift of a sound mind. The Holy Spirit is your Bodyguard. He walks with you. The man who can kneel before God can stand before any man.

ACTION POINT:Jesus has you in His sight. You are in God’s right hand. Write that down and post it in a place where you can meditate on it throughout the day. Now, ask yourself, “Knowing this, can anything this week change those truths?”

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Well we have sickness again. We just can't stay well this year. Other than that I am excited!! We have FINALLY finished peeling wallpaper!!! So now we can paint. We are remodeling our kitchen. New paint, counter tops, sink, faucet, hardware for cabinets, lighting, and whatever else I can find that needs updated. Oh we are adding a serving area that will open to the living room, so it won't be as closed off. This weekend we put in a new light fixture, faucet and hardware on the cabinets in our bathroom. The faucet broke so my husband went crazy and replaced it all. Thanks dad for helping put in the faucet!! I am so blessed to have my dad close by. He loves to help and knows just about everything there is to know. If he doesn't know he will dig til he does. Barry knows some he was a carpenter, but he loves working with my dad and learning more. We have almost finished with our house. The last big thing after the kitchen is all of the flooring, but I am thinking that may wait a little while.

Oh my what a busy week so far.
Monday, I kept a friend's daughter while her sitter went to the dr, so I had 3 kids, and Barry had to work overtime.
Tuesday is my day for Leah, so I had 3 again. Last night we had a party to go too. We went bowling!! I scored the highest on my team. I feel the need to brag because I beat 3 guys one being my husband. He used to be on a bowling league so he is pretty good. Except for last night. I have to pick at him. He pulled a muscle bowling! Yes, he hit 30 in December and I told him it was all down hill from there. Guess I have the proof now. If you know my husband he is a good athlete and loves sports, so this doesn't fly well. Love you babe!!
Today, Brenden is not feeling well and Blaine is fussy.
Plus, not that I am complaining, but it is church night and that seems to make the day more hectic. I don't think we will be going tonight since Brenden is running fever.
On to a brighter topic!! Blaine can pick up food and put it into his mouth! He is also getting his sippy cup to his mouth on his own. He doesn't always tilt it to get a drink but he will get there soon.
Today has been a hard morning. Since Brenden is not himself he has wanted to snuggle, which tickles my heart strings because he doesn't do that as often now, but Blaine is fussy too so I have had a challenge meeting both of their needs. It looks like it may be one of those days I don't get much else done. Oh well, that is why I stay home, so I am the one snuggling with them when they don't feel well.

I got my new phone in today!! So you can now reach me on my cel or at home.

I could not be more proud of my Brenden. He has done a wonderful job at potty training. He tells me when he needs to go and is waking up dry at nap time and bedtime. I can't believe he has done all of that in a week.

Also this week I started keeping a little girl. She is 3. Her parents just moved to town. Her dad works with Barry and her mom is in college. I just keep her 2 days a week for a few hours a day while her mom is in class. It gives Brenden a chance to have a play date.

If you haven't been able to reach me it is because my cell phone went ca put on me. I will have a new one by next week. Sorry, I am not posting my home # on this page. If you need me bad post a message.

All for now!!

I finally started potty training. We are making progress. I tried before but he cried and so I did not push the issue. Now he has no choice. Also before Blaine was about to be born so it wasn't good timing with that about to consume our time for a while. I know he is smart enough to understand, and he does, but it is a new ballgame that he has to get comfortable with. If you know my child at all you know he doesn't do new things with out being forced. He will make a great Southern Baptist! So if you are not seeing us around or hearing from me like normal it is because I am running back and forth to the potty and to Blaine like a chicken with its head cut off!!!
Blaine is growing!! I cannot believe he will be 7 months old in less than a week. Only 4 months until he starts to be weaned from me!!! And I will be free at last. Not that I don't enjoy my time with him because after that it will be on his terms only. His bottom teeth just shine! And he is scooting around everywhere. He will get up on all fours and rock! Too cute! Until the day he figures out how to crawl then my house will be in shambles. Brenden will flip out if Blaine messes with his stuff and I will be going crazy. I can't wait!! Seriously that is why I am a mom. I love the thought of my kids growing up and becoming these people that I raised. I never want to miss a moment. I am so thankful and blessed that God has provided the means for me to stay at home and not miss any of the moments. Yes there are days I would love to lock myself in my bathroom and soak in peace, but there are also days that I don't want them out of my lap. I am a snuggling mom. I could sit and rock all day. I am not so good at the playing thing. That is Barry's area. He is great at it. I am too structured for that. Brenden plays with me for 5 minutes and is so bored he rather play by himself. Hey at least I can admit it!

Well think about me for awhile!! I will need prayer!! Not for patience! I learned that lesson. I don't pray for that because He will give me situations to learn it!! Not that I won't be put in the position anyway because I could use the lesson. I just don't want to ask for it!! Have a great day!

I read a blog the other day and they were talking about forgiveness. It got me to thinking about myself and if I do well at forgiving people. I would say that I do when it is easy for me. I know that I let somethings go but hold on to others. But as I have thought more about it, I worry more about other people forgiving me for my faults. There are things that have happened in high school that I still think about. When this comes up I turn it right back over to God because I know I have asked Him for forgiveness and the enemy is just trying to make me doubt. There are other times when I do something stupid in the moment and wish I hadn't that I dwell on also. Sometimes I ask that person for forgiveness and other times I ask My God for forgiveness. And then the situation is not my responsibility anymore. Back to me forgiving. There are things that like Barry and I may disagree on and it is so important at the time then the next day I couldn't tell you what it was about. I know that is God allowing that forgiveness because there are other times that it is a built up grudge against that person and it doesn't matter what they do it is wrong. That is the enemy. And I am allowing that to use up my energy. There are other times that I will have a bad experience in public, which seems to happen often lately which makes me appreciate staying at home and not dealing with the public as much, and I rant about it all day and make it a horrible day for everyone that will listen. That is the enemy. I am allowing him to pass on my negative atitude to other people and influence them. Forgiveness. It is hard. Hard to swallow no matter what end you are on. But to allow the enemy to use me for anything is a lot harder to swallow.